AIN'T NO TAYLOR SWIFT

I ain't no Taylor Swift.
But I tend to write based on my everyday life.
If you are apart of my life, chances are you already inside my fairytale.
Sorry dearies, if you are included without your own will.
But don't you worry, there is always way for you not to be.
Just ignore me and avoid me at all means.
That way I will forget you slowly due to my short term memories that I tend to carry all the time.
But, beforehand there is no guarantee it will works.
You might just end up in my 10 pages short stories.
Told ya I ain't no Taylor Swift.

WORLD ADVENTURE

Beware, you are in deep danger whenever i have a piece of paper and pencil in my hand.
Careful, you might want to take a deep breath before you start this neverending adventure.
Caution, there is always unexpected things happen here in my own little world you're peeping right now.
Think twice, everytime you decided that you have already know me just by looking at me from far.
Be wary, at all times cause you might just end up being frustrated when you already find out what my world really looks like.

Now, are you ready to start the adventure?

REBELLIOUS STORY.

Enough with the love story.

Enough with the love song.

No, i am not against it.

Never once in my life i'm against it.

Secretly, i'm actually eager to it.

It you see is actually love.

No solid reason as to why i'm not for it.

It is just that i'm not into it.

To everyone else, go for it.

It, you see is actually love.

I'm no difference with or without it.

I still know to respect the elders.

I still know to lookout for others.

SO you see i'm still normal even without it.

There is nothing less human about me.

After all, this is just a rebellious story of me at the age of 23.

How much.

How much longer she have to look at you from far?
How many times she need to see you having fun with other girl than her?
How many tears she need to shed for you to see her?
How far she need to follow you around like a shadow without you knowing?

That girl's heart is full of scars.
That girl's mind is full of hurtful memories.
That girl's eyes if full of sadness.
That girl's pride is what she have left to hold on to.

If she keep looking at you from far,
If she keep seeing you having fun with other girl,
If she keep shedding tears,
If she keep follows you around,
Will it make you fall in love with her?

Do you know that i'm that girl?
You wouldn't act this way if you know.
You wouldn't know because you're a fool.

Kisah mual

Hoi perempuan,
Maaf agak kasar, tapi aku sudah mual.
Hentikanlah kisah sedih kau itu.
Yang sudah terlalu kau kisahkan.
Kisah betapa kau ini kesunyian, kawan sekeliling tak endah.
Kisah kau ini semua bakat tak ada, tiada apa dalam diri kau yang boleh dibangga cerita.
Kisah keluarga kau yang sering teraniaya dan kau hidup tanpa mewah harta.

Maaf agak kasar, tapi aku sudah mual.
Hentikanlah air mata palsu yang kau perah paksa itu.
Yang sudah terlalu sering kau alirkan.

Pernah kau merasa ke sekolah dengan seragam yang tak tahu siapa tuan asalnya?
Pernah kau tidur malam bertemankan risau kerana bila-bila masa kau akan dihalau oleh tuan rumah?
Pernah kau mengikat perut seharian kerana ayah tak berkudrat untuk mengutip tin dan botol hari ini?
Pernah kau hidup dengan caci maki kawan kerana seluar senaman kau lusuh dan koyak-koyak.

Kalau kau masih cukup makan 3 kali sehari walau lauk tak meriah,
Kalau kau masih mampu ke sekolah dengan duit belanja walau tak mewah,
Kalau kau masih boleh tidur malam walau tilam tak berjenama,
Kalau kau masih punya pakaian sekurang-kurangnya 3 walau sudah pudar warnanya,
Hentikanlah kisah sedih kau itu.
Maaf agak kasar, tapi aku sudah mual.

Merendah diri dan merendah-rendahkan diri itu tersangat beza.

Fall love

This is me wanting to know.

What it feels like to fall in love?

Does it always bubble gum and gummy bear?

Was it true you will never shed a tear?

It must feel good to always have someone beside you 24/7.

The one who will be your other half.

Does your life appear more simpler now?

Does everything seems alright and nothing can make you feel sad?

Does falling in love feels like an itch you can't scratch?

Does love make your life so complete?

It seems that falling in love is now a big part of your small life.

Was it love that makes you smile more brighter now?

Falling in love makes you can't think right and now you suddenly realize that the world seems turning so fast.

People said that falling in love feels like a garden full of roses and beautiful flowers.

So please tell me once again, what it feels like to fall in love.

TERIMA

Biar rongak giginya.

Biar kengkang jalannya.

Biar botak rambutnya.

Saya terima juga.

Tak mengapa kalau yang diluar sana cerca.

Tak mengapa kalau yang diluar sana hina.

Tak mengapa juga kalau yang diluar sana ludah.

Saya terima juga.

Mari sini kongsikan masalah jiwa.

Mari sini alirkan airmata.

Mari sini nyanyikan duka lara.

Saya terima juga.

Kita sama kita.

Tak sama sempurna.

Tak tentu betulnya.

Tak tahu serasinya.

Saya terima juga.

Paling perit kalau dikongsi seorang.

Paling jahanam kalau diharung seorang.

Paling sakit kalau disimpan seorang.

Mari sini kita kongsi, harung sama kita-kita.

SEMALAM, HARI INI, ESOK

Semalam satu,

Hari ini dua,

Esok tiga.

Semalam gementar,

Hari ini lega,

Esok gembira.

Semalam kekasih,

Hari ini suami isteri,

Esok ibu bapa.

Semalam coupe,

Hari ini convertible,

Esok MPV.

Selamat Pengantin Baru!

PROUD LOVE

I’m proud with your love.

I can stand tall and tell the whole world.

How proud I am with you.

No matter how short it is.

No matter what other people say.

I’m proud with your love.

It doesn’t matter to you.

It doesn’t mean anything to you.

But still I cherish it.

Still i’m thankful for it.

Still i’m proud with your love.

Sorry that I can’t do the same thing for you.

Sorry I can’t love as hardest as you.

Sorry I can’t express it as freely as you.

But most of all,

Sorry that I can’t say sorry and thank you.

I’m proud with your love.

AKU ORANG KATA

Aku benci bangun pagi,

Aku tidak gemar menjawap panggilan,

Aku fobia sama kucing,

Aku taksub sama MINI,

Aku lebih gemar tshirt dari blaus,

Aku masih keliru antara maskara dan eyeliner,

Aku alergi sama segala berwarna merah jambu.

Orang kata aku terlalu lembut hati,

Orang kata aku ini terlalu garang,

Orang kata aku ini jalan kengkang,

Orang kata aku ini terlalu kasar,

Orang kata aku ini terlalu jiwa-jiwa,

Orang kata aku ini berminda orang tua.

WAY

It is 5 a.m and i’m only thinking about,

The way you hold my hand.

The way you looked at me.

The way we talked together.

The way you introduce me to the others.

The way you see our future.

YOU

It is so beautiful to see,

Your soul.

Pure and honest.

You are not like them.

You see right through me.

Even i don’t know about myself.

If only I can be lucky like her.

If only I am the one you choose.

If only I can turn back time.

Thank you for letting me know,

How special I am to you,

Long time ago.

SECRET

It is between you and me,

I won’t tell anybody,

About out secret picnic,

When there is only you and me,

When ‘us’ is matter the most than ‘them’,

When only we know,

Only we know,

The time spend together,

The conversation takes hours,

The goodnight and the dreams,

That only we know,

Only we know.

SIAPA SI APA

Apa akan kau bagi pada si gadis yang menjual tubuhnya?

Si gadis yang menjual tubuhnya hanya untuk merasa diperlukan, dihargai.

Apa akan kau bagi pada si anak kecil yang mengemis dijalanan?

Si anak kecil yang mengemis hanya untuk merasa berguna pada keluarga.

Apa akan kau bagi pada si ibu yang mengutip tin dan kotak dicelahan sampah?

Si ibu yang mengutip tin dan kotak dicelahan sampah hanya untuk merasa bahagia lihat anak-anaknya makan berlaukkan ayam goreng.

Apa akan kau bagi pada si bapa yang bekerja sebagai kaki pukul upahan?

Si bapa yang bekerja sebagai kaki pukul upahan hanya untuk mengaburi samseng jalanan yang lain.

TIMES

I love you, i love you, i love you,

Though there are times i can’t feel it from you,

When sometimes you came out of the blue.

I love you, i love you, i love you.

There are times you don’t know how to act,

And yes, it’s a fact.

I love you, i love you, i love you,

Words can’t describe it,

Gifts can’t fulfill it.

But,

I love you,

I love you,

I love you.

COULD

Could you please,

Let me know when there are times you feel unsure,

When you think this is too good to be true.

Could you please,

Let me know when stay away is the best cure,

When ignorance is the only way.

Could you please,

Let me know that you feel there is nothing we can do,

That you are already on your way out.

Could you please,

Let me know when breathing together is getting harder,

When holding hand is like a crazy idea.

SHE

She want to write,

She want tp express her feeling,

To ease her pain.

She try to write,

She want to tell her side of story,

To stop the glaring eyes.

She already have the paper, pencil,

She write it down, so eager, so excited.

But one thing she didn’t have,

Courage,

So she shred the paper into small pieces and throw it away.

HATI-HATI

Hati,

Biar dia pergi,

Mungkin lebih baik.

Hati,

Janganlah begini,

Nanti kau sakit.

Hati,

Sabar,

Kuatlah,

Mungkin nanti.

Hati.

Aku jua tidak mengerti,

Aku jua tidak mau dia pergi,

Aku jua mau dia mengerti.

Hati,

Biarlah,

Ini yang terbaik,

Dia takkan pernah mengerti,

Dia takkan pernah lihat,

Aku sudah lelah menanti.

KEHADAPAN ALEXANDER

Kehadapan Alexander,

Ku kirimkan ini tanda maaf,

Agar hatiku lebih tenang,

Agar aku bisa terbang.

Kau takkan pernah mengerti,

Kau takkan bisa melihat,

Dan aku,

Aku takkan pernah sabar,

Aku takkan pernah berhenti.

Kehadapan Alexander,

Semoga ini yang terakhir,

Semoga ini noktah segala,

Bahagialah kau disana.

Aku akan terus melangkah,

Aku cuba,

Aku tidak akan berpaling,

Aku ingin,

Aku tidak boleh.

SAHABAT

Sahabat di sana,

Ajarkan aku erti persahabatan,

Agar aku tau menghargaimu.

Sahabat di sana,

Ajarkan aku setia,

Agar aku tidak meninggalkanmu.

Sahabat di sana,

Ajarkan aku erti gembira,

Agar aku ceria bila bersama.

Sahabat di sana,

Aku tau kau sahabatku,

Aku tau kau setia,

Aku tau kau gembira.

Aku tidak pernah lafazkannya,

Aku tidak pernah tunjukkannya,

Tapi,

Kau fahamilah aku,

Kau mengertilah aku.

BEZA DUA

Kau kawan aku.

Dia juga kawan aku.

Tak perlu kau burukkan dia.

Dia juga tidak burukkan kamu.

Kau bahagia dengan dia.

Dia juga bahagia dengannya.

Tak perlu kau kisahkan dia.

Dia juga tidak kisahkan kamu.

Tolong jangan biar aku tersepit ditengah.

Jangan biar aku disimpang.

Jangan sampai aku terbelah.

Jangan sampai aku melambung.

Kau kawan aku.

Dia juga kawan aku.

4 PENJURU

Aku ini yang kadang jalannya canggung,

Aku ini yang kadang pakainya lagak orang bingung.

Ya, akulah itu yang selalu kelam kabut,

Yang selalu kusut dan repot.

Aku itu terkadang jua takut,

Aku itu terkadang sering mengarut,

Aku itu terkadang jua hanyut.

Tapi apa perlu aku diserabut.

Seorang di kiri aku, bimbing aku elak hanyut,

Seorang dikanan aku, bimbing aku dari kabut,

Seorang di belakang aku, bimbing aku dari mengarut,

Seorang di hadapan aku, bimbing aku dari takut.

Ya, aku ada mereka, empat kesemuanya,

Supaya aku tak perlu takut, mengarut, kabut, hanyut.

Andai mereka pergi jauh, harap tidak lupakan aku,

Andai mereka telah jenuh, harap tidak benci aku.